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So, have you ever heard the saying “the grass is always greener on the other side”? Well of course you have, but have you ever really sat down and thought about it? I have been thinking a lot lately, and maybe that is my downfall. I read too much into everything and always seem to let my emotions get the best of me. But, I’m only human, and thats normal. Why do we sometimes live our lives always wanting more, or looking for the next best thing? Why can’t we just be happy in the here and now, and love what we have? Or just be content where we are? Frankly, I don’t know the answer to this. When you see others around you getting everything you want doesn’t it ever make your eyes green with envy? Have you ever actually taken a step back to look at the situation from an outsiders perspective? I’d rather spend my time right now making memories that will last a lifetime then longterm plans.

I watched Beyonce do an interview with Opera a while back and it really opened my eyes up to new things. I was overcome with emotions that I didn’t even know ever existed and began to really re-evaluate my position on things. The most impactful thing she said was “First and foremost you have to have your own life, and be your own person before you can devote yourself to someone else.” And, this really got me thinking about everything. Do you ever put all your effort into one sole person or one sole cause and never step back and do something for yourself? Or establish yourself as your own person? The hardest part of your life will be deciding when to let go and when to try harder. Sometimes no matter how bad you want something, it’s not going to happen. So, do you deal with that? Suck up your pride and walk away or do you work at it more? Have you ever felt like you’ve made someone a priority in your life, only to find out you were only and option in theres? Honestly, we all have at one point or another. But, how do you move on from a situation like that? How do you pick up the pieces and start to put them back together? How do you stand on your own two feet and not depend on someone else to make you happy? How do you learn to make yourself happy? Personally, I feel like going to school and working really make me feel like I have a purpose and am working towards something for “me”. I love people, I am just a people person, cut and dry. I want to help everyone and anyone I come in contact with. I’m a selfless person and just helping people makes me happy. You have to find something that truly makes you happy. Never put 100% stock in one single person to make you happy. There is a world full of people that need you, wether it be for your job, to be a friend or maybe even a better half. Never settle in your life for anything less than everything.

With all that being said, I feel as if I’m at a point in my life where I am finally happy with who I am as a person. I’m not concerned with what everyone around town is doing or saying. For once, I really feel at peace with everything. I don’t feel as if I have to go around avoiding the drama and gossip. I think everyone has really matured and grown into their own person and have stopped worrying about everyone else is doing.

I have no regrets, I have accepted my past. All of these things have helped to shape me into the person I am today. I finally realize you need to really establish yourself as an individual and be who you want to be. There is nothing in the world that should ever hold you back from being you! It takes courage and strenght to accept the fact that everything happens for a reason. Regardless of what that reason may be.

“You just have to go after what you want & if it doesn’t want you back then so be it. It doesn’t deserve you anyway.”

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Jaime Leigh

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My Favorite Things:

snowboarding, the beach, friends, text messages, dancing, driving, country music, running, partying, bonfires, reading, writing, traveling, desperate housewives & basically anything me and my boyfriend do.

My Favorite Quote:

"Eventually all the pieces will fall into place. until then laugh at the confusion, live for the moment, and know that everything happens for a reason."